Good day indeed!

Sentosa outing with my Hyatt colleagues was fun! Suppose to meet at 12:30pm but everyone else was late. 3 of us (Ivan, Ah Heng and me) reached at about 1pm whereas Richard, who is the “earliest” reached at 1:30pm. Haha. Cabbed down to Silosa Beach where we cycled there for about 2 hours from 2:20pm to 4pm. In between, we joined the rest of our colleagues like Rebecca, Regina, Debbie, Huai Ying, Chun Lin, Li Hua who were there very early. Oh.. And Tristan was there too! Haha. But I don’t know why, I just can’t click with the JC people. Especially somebody.

After we returned our bike at about 4pm, went back to Siloso Beach to join the rest where we played Captain’s Ball. Man, heaven is really not on our side. Played for only about half an hour and the rain poured like nobody’s business. We went all drenched from head to toe. And somemore I did not bring an extra set of clothes :( Oh.. And there is this brave small little kid (an Ang-moh), who skated and danced under the rain. We really take our hats off him. Haha. We took shelter at Tapizza (If I remembered the name correctly) and Tristan treated us to drink and food. It must have really cost a bomb for her. Haha. Food served was nice. The only thing is that the service there could have been better.

When the rain stopped, the rest played basketball over at the court. Haha. But, I’m like the audience. I only stand there and watch. While the guys were playing, Huai Ying and her group were talking about a familar figure which they saw. I overheard someone else’s name which shifted my attention to the group of people playing volleyball in front of us. It was about 6pm then. Suddenly, the familiar figure caught my eye. I knew straightaway that my intuition is correct while the rest kept on wondering away. Tadah.. Emotions brushed past me. But I hold back. Never did I expect it to be so coincident. The scene keeps on popping up in my mind, even until now. 那个场面不断地浮现在我脑海中. Hmmm, why? I also have no idea. But at least I know something. I wasn’t ignored :)

After that, I left with Richard, Ivan and Ah Heng back to Habourfront. We did not join the group for dinner but headed off ourselves. Are we considered anti-social by leaving like that? Haha. Went off to have our dinner at KFC.

Home sweet home. Got to rush my Cons Bkg for project meeting tomorrow. Overall, I really enjoyed myself today, with the wonderful peeps. When was the last time you were really happy?




It’s all about fate.
“Eh, you also around?”
“Ya”



I really have to get this off my chest.

Made a decision today. I don’t know if I’m right or wrong. But the thing I know is that I decided not to stay on when being asked about the question this morning. I have no passion about the 4 letter word anymore and I don’t think I have the commitment to serve. Now, smses and phone calls which I received a while ago are telling me a different story. I was asked to think twice. But, if you really want me to go, I can choose to. I’m not sure if it is a misunderstanding.

D05. When I went for the course in 2005, my passion is still burning like a fire. “Each of us is a candle to be lighted, not an empty vessel to be filled”. Thinking back about the times I had in PA with my fellow squadmates and batchmates, these memories really made me smile. Memories are there for us to remember because it brings smile and joy to our life :) The times when we learn, we sing, we cheer, we march, being tekan, passed out together in our smart no. 1 ceremonial uniform etc. I never thought that I will be able to endure the entire mind torturing 18 days course. When I was away from home for so many days. Haha.

The commitment to serve, the passion to lead.

Should I stay on? I want to consult her.











Two consecutive days off from work.

Back to school for project meeting yesterday. Started a bit on the FOI project. Haha. But at least something is done. After that, met my group mates for consumer banking to compile our outline to be shown to our tutor on friday during consultation. Haha. Even this 2 weeks of holiday is a no rest for me where there is so many things to be done. Work, projects and my other stuffs.

Today, spent my time lazing at home. Didn't do much and all I did was sleep, sleep and sleep. Wanted to clear up my study table but was too lazy to do so. Haha. Oh.. Talking about that, suddenly remember about this pic which my cousin sent me. Haha. Didn't know that a cat knows how to read.

Song: Never Let you go

By Janice Wei Lan

The rain just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same Everlasting pain of my loss remains My heart can't seem to learn to part The hold you left your mark All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark,

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath A part of me was dying There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

*Chorus

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling I would hold your hand and look in your eyes And you know I'd never let you go.

The way you left me on the train I don't know what to say I remember everything of that day I can't believe we'd never dance I just need one more chance To share the sunset Our one last romance

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath A part of me was dying There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling I would hold your hand and look in your eyes And you know I'd never let you go.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling I would hold your hand and look in your eyes And you know I'd never let you go.

Why did I agree to go back Hyatt in the first place?

Someone:

Who do you think you are? Do you think that you can order me around as you like? I was like so what the... Feeling so damn pissed off today. Just to tell you this, I'm not your tool! If you do not trust me enough, you can do it yourself. What for you give me instructions? Seriously, it's like so WHAT THE HELL.

Scram, you bitch.




Are you the one?



Fond Memories

Kindergarten
1. You love Winnie the Pooh, Barbie dolls, Mickey and Minnie, Hello Kitty, Garfield, Sailormoon etc. . .
2. You took up drawing lessons together with your sister. You were in different class and you like to go to the toilet on purpose so that you can pass by her class.

Primary School
3. You were enrolled into a Buddhist school.
4. Your pocket money is always less than $3.
5. You hated PE lessons, since you weren’t active in sports.
6. You dread Science lessons, for you have to do experiments which you don’t have the slightest clue what it is about.
7. You see your seniors streaming in wearing their Secondary School uniforms during Teachers’ Day. You wish that you can go into Secondary School fast.
8. You took school bus to and from school.
9. You don’t go out with your friends, since your parents are protective of you.
10. You are more or less considered an introvert.
11. You were given pens, files, clips etc during National Day.
12. Your autograph book smells fragrant. It is filled with small poems and words like ‘Forget Me Not’, ‘Friends Forever’, ‘Best Wishes’ and ‘All the best for your PSLE’ from your friends and teachers.
13. You remember that guys love to play with their erasers. That is their favourite pastime.
14.Your classmates love to pull jokes on you.
15. You hated school very much.
16. You won 3rd position in a Chinese Calligraphy Competition.
17. You dread Maths lessons, for your Maths teacher, Ms Ong is very fierce.
18. Your Maths worksheet is always written down with the words ‘See me’, since your correction is always wrong. You have to stay back to complete them and you fear that you may miss your school bus as a result.
19. Although you hated your Maths teacher, you almost cried when you learnt that she will be leaving on Teachers’ Day.
20. You tried to fulfill the tasks for a Young Botanist and you manage to obtain a badge.
21. You love to borrow Sweet Valley High books from your school library to read.
22. You will collect all the bus tickets you have and fold them into a heart.
23. You were given envelopes to donate to Sharity Elephant during Children’s Day.
24. You freak out when you have to hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl.
25. Your worksheets were made of brown rough paper of low quality.
26. You carry waterbottle to school everyday.
27. You do not have a handphone, and you envy your friends who have one.
28. You wore Bata shoes to school.
29. You have spelling tests weekly.
30. Your class has about 40 pupils.

Secondary School
31. You study in a Buddhist school, which is affiliated to your Primary School.
32. Your school uniform is blue in colour with two flaps.
33. You were never late for school, not even once in your 4 years.
34. You hated assemblys, for you think that it’s a total waste of time.
35. You were extremely weak in Literature when you were in lower secondary. You failed every single tests and exams and the worst thing is that you ever scored single digit for your test before!
36. You joined NPCC as your CCA, and you delivered your valediction speech on behalf of your fellow squadmates.
37. You have a memorable day during Graduation Day 2005. Given a choice, you will want to choose MJR again.
38. You still remember your form teacher, Mrs Lim (who teaches you double Maths) telling your class that “No time already, just memorise the steps if you cannot do it”.
39. You found A Maths a struggle but you slowly get used to it. You heeded Mrs Lim’s advice and memorise the steps in order to tackle the problems.
40. You have always wanted to go into a Business-related course after your ‘O’ Level.
41. You tried to love Chemistry because it is taught by your CCA teacher-in-charge. You scored higher marks for Chemistry as compared to Physics in the end.
42. You did not go and sit for your Pure Geography ‘O’ Level paper since you think that you could not make it. You don’t want to break the 100% record which has been in history for many years.
43. You left a whole stack of books underneath your table. You do not bring your books home to do your revision.
44. You never fail to study at the last minute although you know that ‘last minute carries Buddha’s leg’ won’t help.
45. You don’t love to read books. That explains your weakness for the language.
46. You have no idea which course to go into if your English could not make it.
47. You were given detention once for not doing your correction for English when you were in lower secondary (ONCE in your 4 years!)
48. Your class thinks that your English teacher, Mr Tan is too naggy. EL lessons are a bore but you tried hard to listen and absorb as much as you can.
49. You stood for the whole of 2 periods for your Chinese lessons when you were in Sec. 4, just because you forgot to bring your dictionary to class. Blame it on yourself that you have a strict Chinese teacher.
50. You were dismissed from school as early as 1:15pm if you do not have any remedial lessons.



Hyatt's birthday song is nice. I heard it yesterday when the M9 staff sang it (3.45pm). The song just reminds me of you. The day when you actually sang it for me over the phone.


Will you keep the promise that you made to me? I really hope so. 9 more months from now.



Friday.
Last paper on that day. Went out with 2 different groups of people. First and foremost, we celebrated Liping’s 18th Birthday at Tampines Mall. Happy Birthday Liping! We were a bit late as we went to B1 to search for a birthday cake for her. Decided on which one to buy but it's already sold out when we finished our lunch and decided to go down to the basement to purchase it. Haha. Ended up buying from Royals instead. But anyway the cake is nice :) Haha. The sad thing is, I spoilt the fun. Suppose to give her a surprise but I end up leaking out that we are buying a cake for her. Haha.





Haven't been updating for the past 1 week. Haha.

Okay, term tests is over. I have a very bad omen about it now that it's over. Haiz.. I think that i'm going to do very badly this time round. Whatever lah, what's past is past. No point I keep on whining about it. The marks have been sealed anyway.

Hmmm, I'm now in the school library waiting for time to pass. Sianz..

Blogged again soon.



Another boring day of school.

Term test commences this saturday. And it's PFP. I have yet to finish studying. Haiz.. Fears for my banking and finance subjects soared to an all time high.

Just pray that I will not do very badly.



Hello people, just a quick sum-up of what has happened over the past week.

My grandma passed away last friday at 10pm. The news turned out to be very shocking when I wasn't even prepared. My dad, sis and I rushed back to Malaysia at midnight. (The rest of my family members are in Malaysia already) Journey back there was pretty short and we managed to reach Malaysia at about 4am. Rest for a while first before my family proceeded to my uncle's place when the sun rises.

The last time when I saw my grandma before she passed away was 2 weeks ago on that Saturday. My family had an impromtu decision to go back and visit her. She was hospitalised then, and was lying on the patient bed. She appears weak and we can hardly hear what she is saying. Kinda heart-aching to see her in this state. She couldn't walk and has to rely on the wheelchair.

Yesterday, all my relatives were present to send her off for the last time. It's time for her to rest in peace. We set off to Bukit Kangkak where she is being cremated, next to my grandpa. Over there, we pay our respect to both of them. First time I step into a cemetry in my 18 years of life. I have never been to my grandpa's grave before.

Where are you when I needed you the most? I still miss you. Do you know that? Time and again, when I think of you, I cry. I know that it's foolish of me. I need your support at this time. I have the sudden urge to contact you on that day but decided not to. Perhaps you are busy, perhaps you are working. I don't wish to disturb you. Do you still care about me?