To someone:

At least I let you know now, so that I don't give you false hope. Maybe I have yet to forget about him. I just need more time. I'm sorry if I have hurt you. Life will still move on. But don't worry, we are still the very best of friends :)



I can now officially declare myself free from projects! *Claps hands*

I was on the way home when I passed by this school near my house (shall not mention the name due to privacy). It was a temporary school actually, which means that whenever a particular school is undergoing renovation, they will reside there for the time being.

Okay, the cadets were having their Campcraft training. Their tent and flagstuff were up on display. I have seen it several times since a few weeks ago when they first started their trainings. From afar, it really looks nice. Haha. But given their standards (being a SAP school), their quality should be there as well. Haha. Monday afternoon and they are having training. Not bad sia.

Thinking back, Campcraft Competition is one competition that pits each unit’s campcraft skills with other units in a friendly competition environment. It reminds me of my secondary school days when I was in sec. 2 or 3, preparing for the competition. Trainings were 2 or 3 times per week. Tough it might be, nevertheless we tell ourselves to endure it. The toughness we experienced, it’s like once in a lifetime. At the end of the day, it’s not about the end result that matters, but the experience and knowledge gained, the valuable lessons being taught to us.

~A true champion is not one who never fails, but one who never quits~



I have some minor bruises on my arm, just because I slipped and fell yesterday :( How unlucky am I. Lesson of the day: Never tease people. Haha. And I received my "very late" Christmas card and cookie from Kimberly. Haha. She wanted to wait for all the thursday lunchies peeps to be present to give them out. Now, it's more like an early CNY gift. Anyway, thanks. It's the thought that counts.

Phew. One more week and it's gonna be February already? And soon, main exams will be here. I'm not looking forward to CNY because I won't be doing any visiting this year. So meaning no angbaos. Haiz. Anyway, this week is really siong for us.

Friday: Submission of Comm Skills (Notice meeting and Agenda)
International Finance Class Test!

Monday: Comm Skills Summative Test
PFP Project due.

Oh.. And my LOA has been approved! My attendance is back to 100%, except for Comm Skills which I missed the online discussion. Haha. Nevermind lah.

Still on my mind. Just can't helped it.
I tried hard to, but I'm still holding on.
Somebody please tell me why?

Nobody cared about my existence over there. I am like being treated as a transparent person. Just an "extra" person. Perhaps it’s better off I don’t step in there again, since every time I went back, there’s bound to be something I am unhappy or jealous about. The feelings ain't good. Not at all. But who can I do?

Sometimes, I just wish that I wasn’t born into this world.



If you are reading this, I just want to let you know that you don't have to feel guilty. I never even blame you in the first place. Just like what I told every other person, it was purely my own decision. Yes, we may have some disagreements, some miscommunications in the past, but I will just let bygones be bygones. There is no misunderstanding between us, really. As for the incident about being "slaughtered", my apologies then. I didn't expect it to happen. Last note, best wishes in everything.

Feelings.

Taken during Sec 3 School Anniversary 2004

Passing-Out-Parade 2005 - With my fellow squadmates :)

Receiving my POP Cert cum SI rank..

Police Academy - The place where memories lies..

The sunset over at Pulau Ubin..

The instructors of MJR.

The CI rank I wore..

D05 Squad 4 - Great friends whom I been through a lot with.

69th Batch CIBTC: D05 CIs at our proudest moment..





Memories are there for us to keep, because it brings smile and joy to your life :)

My heart beats for him. When he stands close to me inside the train on the way home from Orchard. Don't tell me that it's true?

I was at work today when Richard called me to join him, Ivan and Sebastian to Tampines IKEA to buy furniture since he’s moving house. So, I met them at Toa Payoh after work. Suppose to meet at 7:30pm but they reached at about 8pm. Haha. This time round I got a chauffeur! Wah.. The funny thing is that I have never seen 3 guys going to IKEA together to buy furniture. Haha. Maybe next time I should also be like them. Design my own room, choose the colours I want, the kind of furniture etc. How cool is that?

Initially, they wanted to buy a cupboard but can’t fit into Ivan’s car. So, had to drop the idea and end up buying something else as a result. Haha. Overall, it’s fun to hang out with this bunch of people.

Left at about 10pm. Merry-go-round in Ivan’s car from Tampines to my place. Haha.




Exactly 3 months.


我是否还停留在原点?



My first post in 2008.

3rd day of the new year.

3rd day of school.

3rd time in my life that I’m feeling so depressed.


Again, I have to bottom up my feelings. Since I can tell this to no one.

30th December 2007. Saw him at Sentosa. While lying on my bed that night, I can’t get to sleep so decided to msg him. I was so happy to hear that he will ask me out, since he told me that it’s what he promised me. Haha. I was like so happy. But whether or not he will keep his promise is another thing.


The next day, I chanced upon his shoutout message which says "I know of a angel with a broken wing that descended on Earth.. Is it true that all angels are beautiful? Creating my very own miracle to get her..." That’s the same as his msn nick. When I saw this, my heart sank totally. I knew that the one he is talking about is none other than her. So, my point is, aren’t he not supposed to have a girlfriend until he graduated? I’m actually so stupid that maybe all along I’m just a fool. Is he really a two-timer when he’s together with me at that time? Almost 3 months already, but…..

You people out there who understands what I’m talking about, well, congrats. You should be able to understand how I feel. Just keep it to yourself.

Oh.. Another thing, I suddenly thought of my new year resolutions while on my way home today. Time to brush up my English and change my style of blogging :)

My results sucks to the core. The WORST result ever. Maybe this will serve as a wake up call to me. Regards to all.