I really have to get this off my chest.

Made a decision today. I don’t know if I’m right or wrong. But the thing I know is that I decided not to stay on when being asked about the question this morning. I have no passion about the 4 letter word anymore and I don’t think I have the commitment to serve. Now, smses and phone calls which I received a while ago are telling me a different story. I was asked to think twice. But, if you really want me to go, I can choose to. I’m not sure if it is a misunderstanding.

D05. When I went for the course in 2005, my passion is still burning like a fire. “Each of us is a candle to be lighted, not an empty vessel to be filled”. Thinking back about the times I had in PA with my fellow squadmates and batchmates, these memories really made me smile. Memories are there for us to remember because it brings smile and joy to our life :) The times when we learn, we sing, we cheer, we march, being tekan, passed out together in our smart no. 1 ceremonial uniform etc. I never thought that I will be able to endure the entire mind torturing 18 days course. When I was away from home for so many days. Haha.

The commitment to serve, the passion to lead.

Should I stay on? I want to consult her.