Wanted to post this yesterday but didn’t. So here am I to rant.

I’m feeling so terrible. My relationship with them is so strained. We are like strangers who don’t even bother to talk when we cross paths. Even sometimes strangers also do try to make friends. But, living under one roof and we are no different from strangers?

It's a small matter and yet they are kicking a big fuss over it.
I never have a good talk with them, for a black sheep is always a black sheep.

The past. What’s the point of raking it up to make me so upset about it? Maybe doing so will make them happy, by repeating it over and over again. So sick and tired of all these.

Yesterday at work, I thought that I’m dying. My eyelids are so heavy that it felt like shutting. Some more, I have a bad sore throat. Didn’t even go out for lunch yesterday. In the morning when I arrived at my workplace, I thought that my contact lens (left side) dropped because my vision wasn’t very clear. Kept rubbing my eyes and finally the contact lens shifted place but luckily I managed to put it back in.

Time passes and so glad that finally 5:30pm came, which means I can end work. I hurriedly finished up my work so that I can leave on time. But I did not go straight home. I wanted to be alone and decided to wander around. I dislike this thing called ‘home’ more and more. Nobody understands me.

Reached home slightly after 9pm. I’m dead tired and I thought that I could just dropped dead on my bed. Slept at 10pm~

I really need time to think.

P.S.
My heart aches more than anything else.
To you, sorry if I made you worry about me for the whole day.